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| I need to rant. I need to rant in a place that I doubt anyone will read. My boyfriend of almost a year and I have a mutual friend, and she works with us. She's nice, and she's pretty. And her husband is in the military. Before I met either of them, they both had a thing for each other but didn't act on it because she was married and it was wrong. He confessed this to me on my birthday trip. Way to bring down the mood, right? He says that he doesn't like her anymore, but it still doesn't stop me from feeling weird. It isn't that I don't trust him...it's just that I have a problem with losing him to someone better than I am. Anyway. She's pregnant. And her husband may need to go up north for some sort of training during the last part of her pregnancy and may miss the birth. Okay, that's sad. And I feel bad for her. But she asked my boyfriend to drive her to the hospital. That made me uncomfortable because I know about the past, and that is an extremely intimate and important time in the life of a person, and I'd rather her NOT share it with the person I want to share mine with. When I go into labor I don't want it to be compared to hers, or for him to feel like a pro because he did it once before. And I'm crying over it. And extremely upset about it. And I brought it up and he said, "Well, what do you want me to do, tell her no?" And he asked it in a way that made me feel like a jerk. I'm not a jerk, I just love him and would rather he not be the one to be holding some other woman's hand while she has her baby. | | |
| So, last night I took what I said to heart. Instead of writing just for my own satisfaction, though, I posted it on Mibba. It's the first chapter of a little tiny story. I WAS going to turn it into a novel, but, I figured that if it would ever get into a book I would probably end up writing a Stephen King style book full of different stories. It might actually be easy to let go of this character, surprisingly. So, if anyone still reads this thing, I will now post the link for my story: <a href="http://www.mibba.com/story/_50086/_179685/">Out For Blood</a> | | |
| I really don't know what spawned this blog writing adventure today, but I felt like I should update.
I would just like for it to be known that I am tired of all these pansy ass vampire books, I want a book with substance. Vampires are some of the most lethal creatures ever concocted by the human imagination, and we have books about some that can sparkle that don't drink human blood? That's retarded, it's not like they are doing the world a favor. We already have humans that overkill the animals we've got, now we have vampires sucking their blood just because the don't want to get their hands dirty? It's official. I am writing a vampire book. I have ZERO problem with vampires having morals, there are plenty of human scumbags around for them to clean up, it's just when things get a little to fangirlish that I get...pissed.
Other than the fact that I have zero gallons of gas in my car at the moment and I have to wait until Friday when I get payed to fill my tank up, I do not have a problem at the moment.
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| Reason for this title? I spent the entire weekend with my brother, and we kind of did a Weird Al-esque version of Stuntin' is a Habit..you know, Stuntin' in a Habit. It's pretty hilarious. Look for it on my non-exsistent album "Ballscrackers." Tweleve days until Ry, dad, and I see Green Day in Atlanta. Too bad Dad and I are fighting and can't even be in the same house. Hopefully this won't escalate. I also kind of picked the title for this blog because I've slipped back into an obessession I haven't seen in forever, My Chemical Romance. They're coming out with a new album hopefully later this year, and I am super excited. Gerard has said that it will be NOTHING like The Black Parade, something that I am very thankful for. I didn't like the album when it first came out, and I didn't like the fact that when playing live they came out as The Black Parade, I thought it was just..not them, I guess. But he's said to expect things more like Bullets in the sense that it will be very pure. If it is anything like their remake of Desolation Row, I am really, really looking forward to it. Also, I have come to terms with 21st Century Breakdown. I love it, because now I think I really understand what the band was trying to do with the album. I love it when bands you grow up on mature and STILL sound good. Oh, I've kind of started to enjoy listening to U2 for the first time ever in my life. That's a story all in it's own, and I am going to wait to elaborate until I am feeling less lazy. | | |
| Today was an alright day, nothing went as planned though, and I kind of liked it. I woke up just in time to leave for my grandma's 68th birthday party lunch thing at Spanky's. It was alright. I didn't have cake, but I didn't want any. I also found Jersey Cheesey (my golden iPod). I went to the mall, too. Just chilled in Barnes and Noble with my niece, bought her a few books to read. Then I went to my place of work just tog et my 10% discount card. It's about damn time for that one. I then came home, fixe my hair and make up, and left to go to the movies on a platonic escapade with Ben. I saw Public Enemies again. This time it actually made a lot more sense. Now I am home and super tired. I love the feeling when I go to sleep that I am completely numb, and when I wake up I have to lay there for five minutes just to be able to move. It feels like I really am reenergizing that way. I haven't taken any hydrocodone today, so I am kind of hoping I still get that kind of sleep without it. | | |
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